I really had a hard time. I went through all kinds of hardships. People could not understand hardships till they experienced them. I sowed bad seeds in my previous life. I now only think of that. I sowed bad seeds in my previous life. I would sow good seeds!
If seeds what I had sowed in my previous life were good, I would not suffer hardships. Though I feel I did not do wrong in this life, I would do wrong in previous life. I think so. Seeds which were sowed inevitably spring up!
Human beings are reborn seven times. Someone whose wheels of fortune (cause and effect) appear early come out in this life. Others whose wheels of fortune appear lately come out when they are reborn seven times. I often heard that from a Buddhist priest. I heard twice.
I did not have my children because of my seeds. I was poor because of them. I understood because I was told him everything. "Others are not wrong (everything are not caused by them). I am wrong wholly (everything are caused by myself)." It is a wrong guess to see everything results from others.