|228||August 10th, 1945. Before dawn||17 years old at that time|
|I stare at my hands even now.|
It was summer then. One morning I left the mountain for Oka-machi (district) at about 4 a.m., where my house had used to be. In Oka-machi, I saw trains were blown off and turned into wreckage. Many people were also blown off and lying down here and there outside. I reached the fire-devastated site of my house.
Though I had lived there for more then ten years, it took much time to identify the place where I had used to live because the whole of my town was destroyed.
No one was there. Though I saw many dead people lying there, I couldn't see any people living.
Then I looked for my mother. I held up skulls of dead bodies which had already been reduced to bones with my both hands. Her trade mark was some golden teeth. I picked up dozens of skulls, checked each of their teeth and put them back as they had been before. I couldn't find my mother's.
I sometimes stare at my hands even now.